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Monday, September 22, 2008

*Surprise Appearance Once again...* 22 09 2008

Lunchie todae wif my kakees and while waitin Kenny Boi Boi appeared from nowhere again! =_="" when i was mixing my noodles suddenly got a voice .. "好吃吗"? beside me.. turn ard again.. Oiee.. Kenny Boi Boi nehz..AGAIN!! wif another girl.. haizz... =( den after they left Jesslyn suddenly ask.. "dat one 不会是他的 girlfriend吧?" Woahh!! i almost cushed down sia.. and true enuf.. he holds the remote control of my moods...after he left i was totally quiet.. i hope i din show out wad im not suppose to.. but the IMPROVEMENT is.. i did face him.. look at him properly and "Bye Bye" wif a smile to him! =D

I dunno how much he meant to me.. dat dae i almost cried.. todae juz feel unconfortable in myself.. issit becos i immue to him havin girls ard him.. or issit his place in me is shakey already dat i no longer wan to put in animore effort or bother already??

6:20 AM

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Thursday, September 11, 2008

What Grace Means

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What Kenny Means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

7:51 AM

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Sunday, September 07, 2008

=小小的举动。。大大的感动！!=

Yesterdae juz realised a little change in facebook... Kenny Boi Boi change his profile pic!!heeheez so happy abt it coz juz last Sunday Midnite(Mondae Morning) while we were still chattin i randomly asked him if he have ever thought of changin his facebook profile picture coz it looks FIRECE! hahahaz and i told him i will choose the photo for him from his facebook album.. and so i commented on the other photos and finally i choose the so called "the last one" of the whole album.. den he was like dunno how to "entertain" me animore so he told me.. he will leave it as status quo first.. LOL

And yep! Juz yesterdae nothing betta to do... i surf around facebook and i saw his profile pic changed to the photo dat i have chosed for him!! =D Suddenly!! all the moody feels dat i have since monday after i met him have all GONE!! den it made me realised dat im really a very "contented" person?? But really!! this little action really makes my nite! 至少我说过的话你有记在心里。。。=D 谢谢你！

爱Gracie Loves Kenny Boi Boi爱

8:11 PM

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Saturday, September 06, 2008

=Super Sick.. Super Emo.. Rotting off my Saturday...=

Caught a little flu bug juz yesterdae? or i can sae maybe since thursday.. but i refuse to admit it.. yea.. din took medi on time.. so things got worse yesterdae...a sore throat and a sneezy noseee..=_="" so onli can 硬着头皮 go n get a pill from sis.. haha my Mobile First Aid Box! heeheez yea.. and all i can sae dat the pill is really Strong lah!! i really so drowsy sia! and actually i was chattin wif Jun Qi and Boi Boi..haizz.. actually din wan to end the conversation.. but the medi is overtakin my mind and im really too drowsy liao.. so bo bianz...

Yea yea.. and so.. i was rotting off my Saturday todae emo-ing and slpin.. actually was suppose to go out if mum n grandma.. but feel so lazy.. so even though i was already prepared.. the door is already lock.. i still decide to return and stay at home..

Lonely.. Lonely... very Lonely..by right home alone shld be a very fun thing.. but i dunno y todae i feel super lonely about it..so.. i on the com.. and i open my blog.. and den i remebered dat my blog have OUR song! "私奔到月球"!! i completely forgot all abt it.. HOW COULD I?? yea.. and i was online... saw him online.. but i chose to appear offline.. dunno y... but i wanted to find someone to tok to oso.. saw JQ online.. but din wan to kajiao him animore.. these few daes have been rantin my problems to him.. dun wan to make him feel sick n tired to listen to my 废话.. so in the end i chose to on Wilbert Pan's new song "转机" and start emo-ing off.. and watch teebee at the same time.. den awhile later i decide to off the com and watch teebee onli.. and yea.. the medi is workin by dat time.. DROWSY again.. and blur blur fall asleep... wake up.. fall asleep... Haizz.. super bz lah my mind.. need to emo and need to drowsy.. oh wells.. gotta take medi soon.. not so early.. wan to have fun thru the nite so dun make myself drowsy first! hmmm.. and now reminds me of one of the Antibiotics i took the last time.. i dunno y it made me so HIGH! can laugh n laugh.. i think i need dat now.. HOHOHO.. =P

4:32 AM

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Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Meet him todae again.. to take back my thumbdrive.. yea.. it was during lunch.. i recieved an sms from him.. "Your lunch now or 1pm?"hmmm.. when i saw this msg i juz finish eatin and abt to go for a little shoppin.. and i decided to reply him by callin coz im really lazy to type.. and after much "discussion" finally we meet up at the lobby coz he was actually at Crystal Jade.. (high class ehh! ahgrace work for so many mths still haben got Crystal Jade for lunch lor!) ok aniwaes.. he hand over my thumbdrive and finally todae we both can be alone together and i tried to get this chance to tok to him..he ask if im eatin alone? oh of course not! if im to eat alone i will da bao back to office loh! i told him i pang seh all my kakees.. and he said.. "yea right!" den after dat i told him dat i will be goin to Taiwan.. so he can start planning wad he wan to buy.. and at first he sae "dunno" after dat he start to joke.. "yea! 买一箱一箱的东西!" den i told him.. den i have to go n buy a 32kg luggage bag to fill up!

And while tokin he realised the scar on my hand... i dunno y.. i din tell him the truth behind it...

Kenny Boi Boi: 你的手什么是？
Gracie: 没有啦！以前有事情。。。
Kenny Boi Boi: 什么是?
Gracie: haha 没有啦! 小时候太乖。。跟人打架的。。哈哈哈

I dunno.. i dunno y i din tell him the truth.. issit becos recently after i told Keline and she was like shocked n kept quiet.. at dat moment i was really abit "worried" and sad dat the others might noe the truth oso and start to treat me differently?? but she was absolutely fine even after she noe the truth.. but how about him??

Now i realised im not as strong as i thought... last time mummy asked.."if ur boifriend ask abt ur scar.. will u tell him the truth??" and i din even hesitate and i replied her.. "ya!' But now.. even when he is still not my "anybody" i already hold back the truth behind the scar..BECAUSE I SCARED DAT I WILL LOSE U!

5:30 AM

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Monday, September 01, 2008

=No Title.. Juz purely about him...=

Suppose to meet him todae after work to hand him my thumbdrive.. but about 4 plus he sms me and sae dat he might end early so need me to sneak out halfway from work.. oh wells.. im perfectly fine wif it.. so abt 4:53pm he called... so i went down.. i actually made a keychain wif his name dat i used to called him on it.. so i bring it along too to give it to him...when i reach downstairs... i saw the familair him.. by right i shld be happy.. but suddenly it seems like there is a BIG thing hit down my head...my thoughts.. and most hurtful.. my Heart...

Beside my dear boi.. there is ANOTHER GIRL!! i was stunned.. blank.. i dunno wad to do.. i hold the keychain tigthly in my hand.. i dunno if i shld give it to him.. coz i dunno if dat girl is the right girl for him.. if she is... i might get them into unnecessary conflicts?? wads more! coz the key chain is a Heartshape! but in the end.. all i can do is to walk towards him.. take out my thumbdrive from my pocket.. when he took over the thumbdrive... he sae.. "Wah! 还加料啊?!" coz i have MayDay's guitar accostics hanged on my thumbdrive and oso a ring dat i used to wear..but while he is bz meddling wif my chains i gave him the keychain.. "nah.. 给你！ over the weekends 没事做。。就买这些来玩" after dathe juz "ok lah! 明天还你" (thumbdrive) den i can onli juz Ok.. and a smile.. haizz.. actually.. at dat moment is 强颜欢笑...

Den back to office.. i recievd a sms.. he sae.." Wah! how come steal songs still got free gifts! Thanks lei" so i replied him.. "coz is GSS mah! Gracie Super Sale! on ur way hm?" den he replied.. tellin me dat he is goin for dinner then pub.. so i juz hint.. back.. sayin.. "Ohh!! with the 美女?" den he replied.. " Ya! she so happy u called her dat! coz her bf dun call her dat!" at this moment..i dunno to be happy and relieved? dat the girl already have a boyfriend? but in my heart another question pop out.. "Who is the boyfriend?" haizz...

This topic made me loose my senses since 5pm..after i came back to office.. i e-mailed Pi Pi.. i really wanted to tear.. yes.. my eyes is already welled up wif tears liao.. but becos i dun wan others to noe.. so i held back everything..from 5pm to 6pm.. i leaving in a very complicated thoughts.. i dunno wad im doin.. i dunno wad i wan.. den finally until 6pm.. i still din stop all my stuffs.. i did abit of overtime.. and i knock off.. when im at the lobby.. i feel so lost.. im askin myself "m i suppose to knock off??" coz i feel dat im like a roamin person den suddenly take her bag and knock off though its still not time yet.. but the fact is its already 6pm!

On the whole journey home.. 我是呆呆的。。even the feel dat i juz lost Gui Gong Gong oso came back.. the wan to cry but cannot cry out feel?? I oso dunno y im feelin dat way... though i already noe dat the girl already have a bf... EMO-nization has over came me..

6:07 AM

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